Love

This word is bandied about with such ease, I love you, I love my children , I love my dog, I love my new curtains, I love my new shoes !!!so if love is all of these things how does one differentiate love ? ok it could be in what I do for someone, am I selfless towards another do I put someone before my self, well I don't know other than for me its letting go of my needs and desires and letting someone just be themselves so they can follow their own path and accepting that they enjoy my presence along the way..
Here is my quandary why can I not find the person with whom to share my life ?
Also I never think Im good enough ! I'm to fat, to old, to boring, to unintelligent, not wealthy enough, but I'm not fat, not boring, I do ok just financially,ok yep a little on the old side but only a year older than Courtney Cox and Terri Hatcher, I've accomplished a lot on a little, I'm generous, yes I think maybe lacking in intellect, and this is confirmed by two independent ex boyfriends who have said I have a little pea that floats around inside my head instead of a brain, if only they had said seed at least there would have been some hope of growth but no it was a pea and they either go hard or mushy, so no hope on that front then..
I should get up but its my day off.. and I do have so much to put down here..